The Chrysalis Breaks

[Listening to: Vampire Weekend]

Who loves updates: I love updates

it's been entierely too long since I've uttered a digital word, and that's no good. I've made a decision that I might want to make a career out of this sort of thing (blogging), which increasingly is becoming more and more of an option for our generation (Even though I am terrible at it: undescriptive, vulgar and lazy). Though thoes things I'm sure will change with time, frequency of post, and age. This for me, I guess is nothing more than a glorified live journal (which some utilize better than I could hope with this). at any rate, this is neat:





Google Analytics FTW

Just goes to show how I'm talking to myself. No matter.

What else I love:


Scribefire

Never before has it been this easy to do so many things at once. The dauting task of updating after extended period of digital quietude only snowballs as time passes, which can lead to a whimpering, enevitable end to what before seemed like a blossoming carrobby (carrer/hobby: see above). scribefire though allows one to blog on the drop of a dime so to speak; Blog as you go; blog as the blog blogs you (oh for the love of smurf). Not that I really update enough for it to matter... When I use it though I feel like the one kid in highschool who had a laptop in class. Flashy, overly complicated. At least it makes me feel good though.


Chuck Hagel

Chuck Hagel is a Republican senator from Nebraska who Sticks it to GW every time he get's the chance. He's quite well spoken and intelligent and in my honest opinion should have run for president instead of retiring like a bastard. Watch. This man also is very likely to ed up in the cabinent of *crosses fingers* President Obama. I am a staunch libertarian who believes that the government that governs best governs least, but we all knew voting for Ron Paul was like trying to make your car fly by sticking your arms out the window. But atleast Obama knows that the internet is not a series of tubes.

The All Songs Concidered Blog

These guys not only draw intelligent discussion about music like moths to a flame, they are constantly consistant with fucking spectacular taste. NPR never ceases to suprise me with the music that they make available on the interweb from the radio show. Today I've listened to concerts from The Black Keys, Vampire Weekend, and Stephen Malkmus and the Jicks. Holy shit I can't wait for Primavera.

Also Iron Man


Moving on.

My brain has experienced a violent, sea change in the past weeks. It's amazing how much you learn about yourself traveling alone in place foreign to your own. As self evident as that sounds, until it actually happens it's nothing more than a shimmering, illusory romantic notion. If I were the type of man to consider a glass half empty, I might call the course of the last few weeks as marginally disasterous. With my savings being pissed away (quite literally), my computer pushing daisys , a Catalan man that lives below me that is not above sabotage and has the tools it would be possible to loose sight of the larger picture. Nay though..nay I'm still having the time of my life.

From within the US, unlike every other nation on this planet, it's nearly impossible to really concider what it is to be American. National identity for us is some nebulous vauge nonsense that resembles something close to wearing an american flag pin, waving a flag, pitching a flag on a pole from your house, flag, flag flag, ect., ect,ect. It's all about the flag. FALSE.

What Europeans, oddly enough, lack the ability to grasp (at least the ones I've come across), are that American connotes nothing really but a particular mindset, and for real american culture you have to drop to the state level. Also I am getting tired of the following dialog:

Eurotrash: "Were are you from in the US?"

Euro-Parker: "Originally I am from Tennessee, but I live and go to school in Florida"

Eurotrash: "OH! Florida! You live in Miami, don't you!"

This is growing extremly frustrating, especially concidering my feeling ON Miami. It's either that or "OH! do you live in DISNEYWORLD!"

I don't know which question is harder answering without the extreme use of violence.


I've come to realize though that the american mind is quite different from the rest. We should concider ourselves very lucky. There is quite a stark difference between the way I think (don't know if it's because I just am entirely strange and different from everyone, which is quite possible or because I am American) and the European mind. Apart from the trash that is pushed into the forefront of the minds of the american sheeple, we should concider ourselves lucky because ingrained into our society are blueprints for an individualistic, self reliant people. Not only that, there is also a healthy disregard for authority and really the opinion of anyone else at all. The American Mind is focused on how to build and construct things and situations better, faster, and less expenisve than before, regardless of how long it's been used in one way. In that light, I think the lack of hundreds and hundreds of years of history do us good. We are better off without the weight of the past holding us down to worn out routine. In stead, we are developing a routine of constant change.

We strive to find our own individual new, better functioning identity in a sea of faceless diversity. Perhaps this doesn't seem realistic to everyone considering how the majoriy of the people in our country are quite the opposite of that... by I am a firm believer that the real back bone of a society lies in it's intellectual counter-culture. The culture that rejects 9/10 of what they are taught for their own ideas, and own beliefs. These are the real architects of what's popular, what's real and what goes on underneath the headlines. Thoes who think for themselves and are then immitated by the rest of thoes who can't. From here what was once new, becomes scrutinized analized, reproduced and finally the norm. The next generations seeing these norms, then begins to think and reject for themselves. This new lifeblood and new rejection leads to illumination of the flaws of the older ways of thinking and perhaps new innovation . Not that I have any evidence or study (or anything concrete at all) to back up this ridiculous musings, but that's all they are... and according to my google analytics data, they are private musings. but thoughts, comments, insults, concerns, suggestions, perscriptions, referrals, donations (monetary or otherwise), contributions, or resumés... I'm glad to have them.

Not that these things aren't present here, I think they are just less present. I believe that here the intense weight of history puts pressure on a society to relieve the greatness of the past, and creates a fear of the new different and unknown. As ridiculous and unaplicable (to anything, even less real life) as all of this is sounds, these ideas can be seen in even the smallest things. Which way you take when walking the familar paths of your everyday routines? do you take shortcuts? do you look for shortcuts? Picking a different brand of cookies instead of your favorite because it looks interesting. reading a review for a new internet browser, and trying it out even though the one you use works perfectly fine? Are people who walk on the grass instead of the sidewalks tomorrows rebels? I hope so.